I just came back from holland v, n damn it ! I feel very down right now at this moment of time. Some brief update before i start venting my emotions on the blog.
Met up with Puwen at my area, and together we took a bus down to holland v. Updated each other. Yup.. Had dinner at Blk 40 with ronghua, cheewee, Weiling, Spencer, Hanz, Auntie, Keon and the other two i dont know wats their name. Lucas came to join us half way, and after dinner, its down to wooden table for some drinking session.

Never did i knew, the things we talked about today was so.... i dont know. They did contribute to some of my negative tots. Anyway, the main point today was to speak to ronghua. I think i made my point across, but well, nothing changes. Hiak. They mentioned tt I have changed, that I am no longer the cute and innocent young girl that i used to be. Right, and I finally know that cute innocent girls attract guys, cos right now, I do have my own stand and I fight for it; last time, I would term myself as weak mayb? No matter how unhappy I am, I would dare not voice out, I would just listen. But now, I am different, I just feel that sometimes girls need to protect themselves and at the age of 20, if u are still having the sweet innocent tots, its dangerous.

Anyway I am upset. Its just being concern asking a simple "Are u Ok?", but why do i get a frustrated tone back?
Thats just a small thing that adds on to something even bigger. I spoke to charlene about how i feel this afternoon and at that time I stil couldnt figure out why I am unsure. But after the drinking session, things became clearer to mi. I know why I am being unsure now. I really do. Maybe things are not as simple as I want it to be, haiz... Whatever, I'm gonna sort things out soon. Really hate this feeling....